Hello hello! Been a long time since I last updated my blog. Half a year passed by, and I barely wrote anything. It’s been an emotionally turbulent ride so far, and I’ve been trying to cope with it. Difficulty in access to internet at where I live now is definitely a factor (to my prolonged absence in the blogosphere), but even when I was at home, I find myself spending only very limited time online. The instability, the disorder in my life made me shrink from the world- both physical and virtual ones. But it’s getting better. I’m getting better.

So here I am, sitting in my room, somewhere in the island known for its cleanliness and kiasu-ness. Just started work two weeks ago; so far I’m enjoying it, though it’s too early to tell- I’m just starting to learn about my job scope and responsibilities. I’m clueless as to where I’d end up a year from now; like a raft in the middle of the ocean, I can only wish for the best, and see where life takes me. The idea of not having a concrete direction is new to me, but it’s something I have to get used to (not like I have a choice!). On the bright side, I get to earn SGD, which means I have 2.4 times more of MYR to spend when I go back home! 😀

I lost myself for the past few months, but thank goodness I found my way back. Though not quite the same person I used to be, I believe I’ve changed for the better. Can’t change the past, but at least I can shape the future. Moving on, I now close that bittersweet chapter of my life, and I look forward to happier tropical moments… with cooler weather hopefully! Cheers. 🙂

Grind, oh grind! I’m back! Puerto Rico was a lot of fun, albeit the less-than-ideal weather that was warm and humid, and rainy. But despite all that, I’m so glad I got to hang out with my girls and reminisce on the old times we had back in college. 🙂 More on the trip this weekend.

Some sporadic updates:
Late last night I had a conversation with someone who talked about her retirement plans, what she wanted to do to keep her entertained etc. Listening to her talk requires a lot of patience – she never fails to talk down everyone around her while blowing her own trumpet, she’s always right about everything, she’s better than everyone else, and if there’s anything wrong it’s always other people’s fault. Every single time! It baffles me that she thinks so highly of herself, and that she sincerely holds true to her beliefs. Being surrounded by great friends who are warm and caring most of the time, friends who think alike and are mostly moderates in their actions and beliefs, I am once again reminded to not judge her or people like her, and take a step back to amuse myself from afar. I love my friends, and especially so the ones who think alike as I do, but not everyone has to be such, and they certainly have all the rights in the world to be opinionated, stubborn and/or radical. After all that’s what make the world so colorful. But in all honesty, I’m thankful I don’t see her that often and don’t need to talk to her on a daily basis. Another plus for working graveyard shift. 😉

Two more weeks and I’ll be done with classes, successfully finishing my certificate program on healthcare management. Yay! Only, now I have quite a lot of work to get done before the deadlines. So it’s going to be a gruesome two weeks. Hello to more coffee, caffeine, lots of binging, sleepless days and nights, and fast food. After this though, I should focus on more important stuff, like getting my application done and start searching for financial aid.

Where is life going to take me this time? I wonder. This time, however, it’s with much anticipation and less of those suffocating angst.