Another Chapter
It’s the end of March! Already! When I was four, everything was a drag I couldn’t wait for time to fly by faster. Now I would give anything for time to slow down a little.
Past few months have been crazy. It’s been a roller-coaster ride, and it’s downward all the way. Sometimes life is so unpredictable, all you can do is just hang in there and ride out the storm. Now that I’m done being despondent and dispirited, I’m back to writing and fighting. I should always look at the big picture and remind myself, my problems are petty compared to what has happened to the Japanese. I should consider myself lucky to be alive.
I will try to be a better person. I will try to be a happier person. Heck I’m not going to just “try”! I’m going to fucking make it happen. I refuse to surrender to all the curveballs life threw at me. I’m better than that.
Reflections on 2010
Sand Brain
They say the texture of the brain is like tofu. Tonight though I feel that mine is like a pile of sand held together by water, which really isn’t working. Every grain of sand tries to adhere to one another but attempts are futile because they aren’t meant to be that way. My mind, alas, remains scattered all over the place; and I, for once, will just let it be. Tomorrow when the sun is out and the weather calm, I will sweep up them all up and mold them into one again.
The World is a Beautiful Place
to be born into
if you don’t mind happiness
not always being
so very much fun
if you don’t mind a touch of hell
now and then
just when everything is fine
because even in heaven
they don’t sing
all the time
The world is a beautiful place
to be born into
if you don’t mind some people dying
all the time
or maybe only starving
some of the time
which isn’t half bad
if it isn’t you
Oh the world is a beautiful place
to be born into
if you don’t much mind
a few dead minds
in the higher places
or a bomb or two
now and then
in your upturned faces
or such other improprieties
as our Name Brand society
is prey to
with its men of distinction
and its men of extinction
and its priests
and other patrolmen
and its various segregations
and congressional investigations
and other constipations
that our fool flesh
is heir to
Yes the world is the best place of all
for a lot of such things as
making the fun scene
and making the love scene
and making the sad scene
and singing low songs and having inspirations
and walking around
looking at everything
and smelling flowers
and goosing statues
and even thinking
and kissing people and
making babies and wearing pants
and waving hats and
dancing
and going swimming in rivers
on picnics
in the middle of the summer
and just generally
‘living it up’
Yes
but then right in the middle of it
comes the smiling
mortician
Labor Day Weekend in Baltimore
ask me now and i’ll tell you i seriously have no recall of how my July and August passed by. the conscious mind of course will tell you it was all work work work. FDA audit at work gave all of us loads of stress but we couldn’t really do “real” work. after the audit is when the real suffering began- we had to catch up with clients’ orders; all the testings were backlogged and everyone worked over time for as much as we’re allowed to. even now, and we’re still sort of behind. not as bad, but still. that is my official excuse of not blogging for the past few months hahaha. but no, really, it was a lot of work, and when i had free time, all i want to do is just sleep. or hang out with friends.
so on labor day weekend, first weekend of September, S invited me to her sis’ house in the east coast and i took it without much thought. i decided i deserved a break from this hectic work-life. it was well worth the trip, for i met the cutest little princess with almond eyes and am forever smitten by her. :))
The Birthday in July
i am back-tracking.
for the sole reason of none other than my deteriorating memory, i am jotting down the little things (or big things) that happened prior to this moment, so that i can look back and remember what i’ve done during my time in LA- for soon, i will be gone from here, and what is left will merely be memories of this place and the people i’ve met. but even then, memories are nothing more than traces of thoughts in our mind that can so easily be tampered with, modified, or forgotten. and so, this little virtual space will be a tool to help me remember the good times.
now, on to the back-tracking process. 🙂
Hello Again (Pearl of the Caribbean – Part 2)
well, well. i stopped writing for so long i don’t even know where to begin! so much has happened, yet nothing has happened that shouldn’t have happened. does that even make sense?! it’s almost the end of september, i’m running out of time. but i guess since i’ve been away for so long, there is no hurry in writing any updates. here are some pictures from puerto rico, where i left off the last time.
Sweet as Honey and Warm as Sunshine
I promise you, these videos are of the cutest little kids I’ve ever seen, the first one reciting a poem – Litany, by Billy Collins, and the latter, a french girl telling her cutest (albeit a little morbid) fairytale that tickles your heart. if you’re having a bad day, spend the next six and a half minutes to watch this, it will cheer you up. 🙂
Uhm
omg i completely abandoned the blog for more than a month now. this is terrible. unbelievable! if you’re wondering, i’ve been too busy at work, and catching up with friends when i’m not. here are a few pics as proofs. puerto rico pics will be up when i get my other more important stuff done! priorities!! 😛
Marxism
~ Excerpt from On Love, by Alain de Botton.
The Pearl of Caribbean – Part 1
A friend commented that I seemed to be living a life of constant flux between my hermit-ville and the party lifestyle. I wouldn’t say it’s exactly true, only because I don’t reckon the second part of it as the “party lifestyle”. But yes, in a way I do live in two separate worlds- one of my own and another of the socializing and getting together with people. Two weekends ago I checked out from my hermit-ville and took off to the self-acclaimed Pearl of the Caribbean, Puerto Rico, visiting my dear friend Jeanie, and meeting up Jessoms and Chris there. It’s been a while since we spent quality time together, and the weekend was definitely a treat for all of us. Despite it being too short, it’s definitely the trip of the year (for me at least). Pictures below were from Jessoms’ camera, mine still needs a little touch-up. Will post them up soon. 🙂
















